Rantings of a Wannabe

Well, Hi there! Guess it was about time to write something about myself again. Since the last blog, I have just been caught up with life so much that I have only created a long list of unfinished blogs. So, I have decided to write a recap of the whole year in this one. (Yes, that sounds like a good excuse for your laziness, keep it up Ayushi!) Anyway, *sighs* what a rollercoaster of a year it has been. I started off as someone who was just hoping for the year to be good. But now that I am standing on the very edge of 2022, I think the year was more than good. After 2019, I think this is the best year I've had so far. And most importantly, this year, I had been in a better place physically as well as mentally (I think).  So, welcome to another rant blog where I go off about how my year has been. And sorry for such lame subheadings; I couldn't think of anything, lol. Oh, and fair warning, it's a long rant :) Bad Start But Good In The Middle So starting off, when a...

Phew! So after several breakdowns, existential crises and a bunch of "no I can't do this anymore" I've finally done it! I'm graduated now. Most of you who know me might be wondering why it's such a big deal for me. Well, the most cliche answer is that I never thought I'd come this far. No, for real, I am currently the highest educated person in my family along with my mom and dad. There are a few other members who also have graduated I think, but no one has gone beyond that. Well, my dad has a master's degree in chemistry so I'm yet to overtake him. I'm sure we'll get there too, just wait and watch! Okay, so this blog is a documentation about all the good and bad times (I'll try to keep the bad tone to minimum) I've had while completing my bachelor's. So let's go! Hope you enjoy reading. The First Step: Hostel Life Given that I never lived anywhere but my home, I was heck scared to move out. A little bit excited ...

What is a world without art? On today's episode of  "Rantings of a Wannabe" we talk about this question and explore what it means. Can you imagine a world where there is no art? Well, I can't because I'm an artist myself. Plus, some great person said, "Earth without art is just eh!" and that, ladies and gentlemen is probably the greatest statement ever said. STRUGGLES OF AN ARTIST: Being an artist is very difficult. Why? Because of the inner conflicts, mostly. First of all, picking up that pen or paintbrush is super difficult. You just can't schedule the process. You need to have a motivation to start working. And finding the correct motivation as we grow up becomes super difficult. Mostly because of our busy lifestyles, assignments, college and above all, laziness. I haven't painted anything since three months, I guess. I'm the queen of procrastination land, you know. Another problem that most of us face is the imposter syndrome. Wh...

Hello, guess who got the time to write? That would be me, thanks. Anyway so here's something I thought about the other day while I was in the bathroom waiting for the bucket to fill. Don't you think the best ideas come up when we are in the bathroom? Did Edison think of the lightbulb while he was pooping? MOVING ON, this might as well be a continuation of my previous blog, Changes . A few months back they released WandaVision and this theory was talked about in that show.  The ship of Theseus or Theseus' paradox: A thought experiment that raises the question of whether an object that has had all of its components replaced remains fundamentally the same object.  So, imagine a ship. Along the course of time, its components rot and the wood withers. But as these components lose their originality, you replace them with an exact replica of that component. Hence one by one, the old gets replaced by the new. At the end, it's the same ship as it was in the beginning. But is it ...

The word "change" has been used here so many times, I hate it already :) Being someone who doesn't even change her phone wallpaper after getting used to it,  I am very scared of changes. Yes, some people consider changes as exciting and thrilling. But for me it has always been something like leaving behind or moving on, which is hard to cope up with. When I look back, I see how much life has changed and people in it, how I have changed myself. I'm not exactly pessimistic about this but is it not scary to see how many people have left you who once were a very major part of your life? (I don't know but this was the most relevant picture) Changes can be from a subtle one to a bigger one: changing your phone number to moving into a new place. Buying new hair products to coming out of a relationship. Even parting with a book or a series that you were so invested in is a change. So how do we deal with these if we are scared? Change of schools: I'm not go...

Ofcourse I was going to write about this, duh! Disclaimer: I stan this show through and through so if you don't like the show then please don't go past this sentence. I don't want you to hate on this. Oh and it also has spoilers so read at your own risk! Hey there! I hope you all are doing great. I'm writing after a while because of some reasons (yeah lemme be mysterious). I don't even know where to start this rant from; this whole episode was so overwhelming for me. First of all, look at this poster: I mean, aren't they looking gorgeous? Courtney Cox, pretty as always! Jennifer Aniston, the queen that she is. Lisa Kudrow hasn't aged a bit. Matthew Perry looks so precious. Matt le Blanc, still the handsome hunk and David Schwimmer looks just the same! The episode was released on 27th May at 12.30pm and I obviously watched it immediately. The way it started was itself so nostalgic and emotional. They all entered the stage one by one and ofcourse Jennifer and...